呼吸

看电视
真的看电视吗
是节目内容
是那演技
还是那演员

呼吸是活着吗
是那过着的日子
是那需要相处的人
还是那态度
那意义呢？

数算日子吗？
呼吸吧

单单一颗顺服的心

明天现时
我已在泰国

复杂心情
好想告诉自己
已经不是第一次去短宣了
紧张什么

像是小孩一样
好期待
因为上帝好像在预备着什么

我不懂如何准备
单单一颗顺服的心够吗

我熟悉的你

万人攻击
万人议论
我却抬起头来
因你是我盾牌
你是我的荣耀
我用声音来求靠
你行动来应允
我无畏惧怕
只因你是你
我熟悉的你

不难为

学习表达
我接下来的功课
并不是接工程的接
而是接着要做的事

没有限期的

并不是语言能力不足
可能只是选错了频道
真不明白为什么可以精通三语
我两语有限

上帝你的恩典在这里
哪有难为的~

你也在追着吗

追着小兔子的狗狗不停的吠
边跑边吠
引起了街边的狗狗也加入阵容
几乎连成一线的追击
形成了 周日中午悠闲小镇的美图

追着追着
追在后面的狗狗慢慢的停下了
不久之后
就只剩下那几只
紧紧追在小兔子后面的狗狗
还在穷追不舍

你也在追着吗
是那在前面因为看到小兔子而追的狗狗
还是那因为听到吠声也就跟着跑的狗狗
你因看不到目标就慢慢的停下了吗

Proverbs 29:18a Where there is no vision, the people perish (KJV)

to remain ~

wait  - v. wait·ed, wait·ing, waits
To remain or rest in expectation.
To remain or be in readiness
To remain temporarily neglected, unattended to, or postponed
To work as a waiter or waitress.

几经祷告
仿佛听到天父说wait
什么? 太快了吗?

常常以为
快就可以做更多的事
一直以为
要为你做更多的事

其实不然
你并不需要“那更多的事”

原来爱你
并不需要为你做“更多的事”

等待仿佛比不做事更难
"等待" 并仰望 于你的力量智慧
"等待" 及处于完全预备




我好像懂了

我们爱

”我们爱因神先爱我们“

好像容易
但其实不然

今天经过荣耀中心
听到孩子们大声的唱着副歌
我仿佛听到上帝在对他们说话
“创造于我亲手，我必侧耳聆听我那眼中的瞳人，我必不离不弃”
加油喔孩子~



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=81eMTVZMZ-Q&feature=youtube_gdata_player

应许 vs 允许

一切的一切都是上帝的应许

美丽的应许 - his promise
不美的也是允许 - he allows

Wonderful so wonderful - your mercy & grace

When You Fail, Then You Need Mercy (All Copyrights 2007-2011 © Reserved By AGAPE LOVE DIVINE MINISTRIES)  

Hebrews 4:16: Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need.
If you are facing a challenge right now, I want you to know that you have a standing invitation from your heavenly Father to come boldly to the throne of grace to “obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need”. The phrase “help in time of need” means that you get healing when you are sick, provisions when you are in lack, restoration when your relationship with a loved one breaks down, and favour when news of job cuts or bad prospects are rife.  

My friend, when you have failed and need mercy, God’s Word assures you that you will find mercy when you come boldly to God. Mercy means that you don’t get the bad things you deserve, such as condemnation, poverty, failure, loss and even death. And mercy is not the only thing that you will obtain when you come boldly to God. You will also find grace. Grace means that you get the good things that you don’t deserve, such as health, protection, anointing, favour, good success and life more abundant. So come boldly to the One who loves you passionately, unconditionally and with an undying love. Come boldly to Him who knows everything about your situation and has the solution. He has wisdom far beyond that doctor you highly respect, that lawyer you greatly honour and the best experts you can consult. Beloved, come boldly to the throne of grace to obtain mercy and grace to help in your time of need!    


Thank God for His great Mercy ~ in Him there is no condemnation
No condemnation so that we are able to come near to him, come boldly to him
To him who promise that will always listen to us
Isn't it wonderful ...  
Jeremiah 29:12 Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
耶 利 米 書 29: 12 你 们 要 呼 求 我 ， 祷 告 我 ， 我 就 应 允 你 们 。 13 你 们 寻 求 我 ， 若 专 心 寻 求 我 ， 就 必 寻 见 。        

Wound

历念
往往留下伤口
很多人
意味的附议
让伤口没有愈合的余地

要么按手 要么撒盐
是应该在陪伴同时
狠狠的让他看清一切
还是不停赞同
让他不再孤独无助

看着愈和结疤
有谁可以记得
那曾经的经过

在你爱里没有惧怕

顺服
那里没有惧怕
而是满有力量的

是那样的吗
是吧 做了就知道
在无比软弱时
我要看见你的刚强

越越越像你

对于出走
我极少犹豫
要去就走呗
途中建立关系
这个当然

但
我在意游伴
三拍还不和
我会疯掉
太怕会疯掉
所以我在意游伴

上帝啊
赐我爱人的耐
教我把人当人
他们不是那移动的树

学着突然

日复一日
我让早知道
变成了幸好来得及
星期二签证办好
星期三我飞

我不喜欢突然变动
常有的临时动议
让我不仅五度怀疑
自己的适应能力
自圆其说地常默默地辩护
也许那就是上帝赋予精彩生活的一种方式

我不能想像
如凡事都如预计发展 顺利进行
无所期待 生活惊吓指数过底

last nite

Here I'm waiting

16th today
The middle day
30 days seem to be long
But 4 weeks are short

I can't hear you
I think I've forgotten how to hear you
Can you pls speak
I'm waiting
Noone understand
Noone like you
Noone understand more than you

I love Cambodia

一直很期待的那八天
匆匆的我又回到了这里
离开了柬埔寨蔚蓝的天空
我问自己留下了什么
又问自己带回了什么

很多的留下
不只是那箱箱的旧衣服
也不只那预备很久的英文教材
不只是那八天的时间
还有那团队的努力

难以估计的我带回了
八天的接触
八天的提会
八天的看见
八天的感动
上帝的介入
上帝的慈爱
无限的希望

The unseen love

I was thinking
Do I 'understand' my salvation after I went for the funeral
Why I've no burden to share the good news to the people around me

Do I 'understand' His love
Why I've no love to the people around me

Do I 'understand' that he died on the cross for the sin of mine and he rose again

I think I might need to be born in Thailand or Cambodia ,in order to experience/  to understand what is king of the country to me and what is the kingdom

Oh Lord , teach me from the beginning

It was about doing the thing that you don like

most of the time I don't know what to talk , What should I pray before I leave

I told myself - I don't like

I think I still don't like , Yet I went n I will go

Sometime Jesus heal,and we all know not all the time he heals

When healing doesn't come , give me more grace to trust You more

I don't like to visit but give me more so that i can experience your grace n learn to be more like you

18th June

六月18
早在去年11月，我就期待它的到来
这并不是什么大喜之日
但我却如此的看重

明天就要飞了
莫名的无形的
我让自己承受了
可能只是个“不过如此”
但我还是期待

上帝我感谢你的赋予
不是即将面对的
而是一路的期待与盼望
我要学习享受那必经过的
如何的琢磨
必比结果美丽

看场电影呗

日复一日
我让早知道
变成了幸好来得及
星期二签证办好
星期三我飞

我不喜欢突然变动
常有的临时动议
让我不仅五度的怀疑
自己的适应能力
自圆其说地常默默地辩护
也许那就是上帝赋予精彩生活的一种方式

我不能想像
如凡事都如预计发展 顺利进行
无所期待 生活惊吓指数零

佩服及感谢电影人
无数创意想像的题材
让我的抽象世界多了点逻辑

改了日复一日的作息
有空常看电影
我的适应联想能力
从看电影加强

Are you ready ?

I'm not sure
But I trust in You

I'm going to start the new chapter
Don't know how many page it will be
Don't know will it be interesting
But I know Your blessing is with me

I'm not ready, but I'm willing to get ready along the way
Let's Your name be glorify

a fruitful day

when alan asked me, what to praying for...
i answered , pray that tomorrow will be a fruitful day for me

indeed, may all things done in his perfect timing.
lord , when things didn't go smoothly, are you trying to train me to be stronger ? or are u telling me, your blessing is not with me, i should stop?

o lord .. teach me ~

22nd April

it's the 22nd days
am i wasting my time
some might says yes
some might says no
if i could know when will i die then maybe i'll get the answer right
if i'm going back to heaven soon
then i think i'm wasting my time now, very badly
if i got a long life, i don mind to rest at this moment
am i don't mind or am i don't know how to mind

i don mind to be don mind , that why i don mind

快疯了

笑到快疯了

原来Tioman可以这样玩

久违了

the 1st day

the 1st day
many ppl congrats me
i was confused, "need to be so happy meh ?" came in to my mind, i asked myself.
i'm actually jobless, it simply mean i'm gonna use my saving till donno when

"i really donno"
it is the 1st time i let myself to be empty-ed
i'm not used to it
i seldom answer ppl "donno"
i used to be always know and always give the right answer
(i think the best things i learn from alpha training- don answer)

i'm not worry, is it mean i have strong faith in you?
i donno
i haven't set any target for myself, is it mean i'm waiting for the higher calling?
i donno
how to choose?
how to decide ?
when am i going to know ?
how to be sure?







thanks for my family, the supports and understanding
thanks for friends beside, the prayer support and care
thanks God for the fruitful 1st day
thanks God for A~ , well done,once again i see God's goodness never fail, i see the love n peace that filled
thanks God for my lovely grandma, may she stays healthy
thanks God for everyone that i met today

will soar on wings like eagles

Isaiah 40:28 Do you not know?


Have you not heard?

The LORD is the everlasting God,

the Creator of the ends of the earth.

He will not grow tired or weary,

and his understanding no one can fathom.

29 He gives strength to the weary

and increases the power of the weak.

30 Even youths grow tired and weary,

and young men stumble and fall;

31 but those who hope in the LORD

will renew their strength.

They will soar on wings like eagles;

they will run and not grow weary,

they will walk and not be faint.





28 你 豈 不 曾 知 道 麼 ？ 你 豈 不 曾 聽 見 麼 ？ 永 在 的 　 神 耶 和 華 ， 創 造 地 極 的 主 ， 並 不 疲 乏 ， 也 不 困 倦 ； 他 的 智 慧 無 法 測 度 。

29 疲 乏 的 ， 他 賜 能 力 ； 軟 弱 的 ， 他 加 力 量 。

30 就 是 少 年 人 也 要 疲 乏 困 倦 ； 強 壯 的 也 必 全 然 跌 倒 。

31 但 那 等 候 耶 和 華 的 必 從 新 得 力 。 他 們 必 如 鷹 展 翅 上 騰 ； 他 們 奔 跑 卻 不 困 倦 ， 行 走 卻 不 疲 乏 。



我常唱STILL
明白的我想要
跟随着展翅的飞
原来并不是单单的展翅飞翔
如鷹展翅上騰

好美

我在听

我想我是不自然的
对于明天即将发生的

对于我所照成的不便
对不起啦希望你会得到公平待遇

月前的我已经开始预备自己
有点期待
有点彷徨
有点象“多吉普的天空”里的poo
要更勇敢
生活更有意义


我要自己的明天
明天又太多的可能

上帝，在带领对吗
我在听

back to the basic

http://profile.purposedriven.com/dailyhope/post.html?contentid=5987

“Other seed fell on shallow soil with underlying rock. This seed began to grow, but soon it withered and died for lack of moisture.” Luke 8:6 (NLT)

If you don’t make time for God, you are not going to hear from God.
You have to slow down and be quiet so you can hear him.
When you are in a hurry you can’t hear God.
If I fly over a country in a plane, I miss all of the details.
If I take the train, I see a little bit more.
If I take a car, I’ll see a little bit more.
If I walk across the country, I will see a lot of details.
The faster you are going in life, the more you miss.
When we live hurried lives, God gets shuffled off into the spare minutes and he is short changed with our time. We say, “Lord, speak to me but do it quickly.” Skimping on our time with God leads to a life that becomes more and more shallow. We don’t go deep because we don’t make time for it.
We aren’t spending enough time alone with God, if at all. He needs quality time to change us.

This shallow lifestyle, where we’re always in a hurry, represents the shallow or rocky soil in Jesus’ parable.

Most of Israel has a thin layer of topsoil over a bedrock of limestone.
The soil isn’t very deep.
Jesus says that when the seed falls on this soil it begins to grow but is soon withered and dies for lack of moisture because its roots can’t go down deep.

Jesus says this shallow soil represents a superficial mind.
A person with this mind kind of listens to God’s Word, and maybe gets emotionally moved, but she/he never really does anything about it.

Over the last thirty years, I can’t tell you how many people have come up to me after a church service to tell me how moved they were by my message.
And yet, months later they still aren’t showing any life change because they didn’t let the message sink in.

How do you get past this? How do you change from being a shallow person to a deep person who keeps the faith even when a recession or an illness or a job loss or marriage trouble hits?

You need two things:
A daily quiet time. You need time alone with God to read the Bible, pray and keep a journal of the things you are learning.
A weekly small group. You need time with other believers who are close to you and can give you a fresh perspective. They can give you the encouragement and accountability you need to go deeper in your relationship with God.
 
 
i like this , not because it speak to me but once again it reminded me , back to the basic
"spent quality quiet time "

i'm with You

was talking with a 20yrs old gal
earning RM1400 per month
driving a 7 yrs old made in our own land's car

i asked her, what do you want to be in days ahead
she told me, own a dessert shop
then she asked me, where will u go for dessert in JB
seriously i don't have an answer for her
so how to start, how to make your dream come true
she said, at 1st you need RM50k

i don't remember did i have any dream when i were 20
i'm glad that she got a dream
i'm glad that people knowing what is their dream

i wish i know where to head to
i were thinking to tell everyone that don't ask me the same question again
i don't have the asnwer yet
should i list down all the posible dream which might come true

i know i should practice the faith from above
to be still and not to be discouraged
there are 1000 things that are able to make you unhappy
but there is also an assurance that He is with us
what are you worry still
aren't you hands in His


I don't care where I go When I'm with you

be my guests

她的认真有感动到
莫名的记得就够了

发了个简讯
你的回答有意外到
谢谢你记得
原来不只上帝记得

3/5 的自己

决定了
我不应许自己不去实践
告知自己它是艰难
以为已经备好
太多的莫测
搞的好累
4.5度想放弃
到底依旧的受不了多些
还是变新的莫测考心力
幸好我留的退路很窄
但心好累

我高估了自己
低估了上帝
是要我学着谦卑吗

芒果冰会让我微笑吧
笑看自己的乐观
太乐观的我
极度漠视现在的自己

24 Feb

24th Feb 雨天

好讨厌猜疑
是太多的婉转
还是你还没决定

话语沟通我很少有问题
惟独与你

我想要离开
就好像恋人般的分手
并不是有了新恋情
只是单纯的厌倦自己
厌倦了目前的自己

生活是可以更美好的
我预备了挑战自己
没有如果

你是 那 加 给 我 力 量 的 ～

突然担心31岁的自己
虽然早在很久以前
就知道它会如无意外的道来
很多突如其来的想法
恍然大悟的领悟
原来30年光景
可以随便挥霍
可以为所欲为
可以不知不觉
梦还没太远
我要勇敢 必须勇敢

靠着祢我行
腓 立 比 書 4:13
我 靠 着 那 加 给 我 力 量 的
凡 事 都 能 做

人际 我考几分？

一流大学毕业、辩才纵横、逻辑清晰、学富五车。
每次开会，能侃侃而谈，很有想法。
需要协调事情的时候，很少人愿意配合他。
大家都不讨厌他，也常觉得他讲的都挺有道理的。
看是乎没问题，但却人缘太差，没法打团队战。

人际是课本没有教的一门。
但却是每一天都要考的试。

无奈 ING

今天接到一封莫明的简讯
我们应该没有熟悉到这种程度
Guess wat.....
XX actually dine at My shop today.....
Looking at us running full house,
he had few more extra pours and got drunk and started shouting at me and my staffs!!
WTF!!!
Hahaha. Losers.

看了以后
想着
1. sent错了吧
2. 需要这样的开心吗
3. 这种喜乐可以维持多久

很多的事与物我想行
但矛盾的我常常挣扎
等待 我怕变成蹉跎
不等待 我担心重来
上帝指引吧

sow n reap ~

This morning,  before i leave home to work, my parents were watching goodTV.
As usual i'll ask my dad, "what the speaker sharing about oh " , just to check whether is he listening.
LOL , like how he checked me last time after school, " what did the teacher in school teach oh, today "

He asnwered me "you reap what you sow. so have to sow first, before you reap"

Looking at the pass of the life of my dad, I don think i can imagine this thing happen in his life.
How to compare oh it is so amazing ~ God , it's over what i can imagine
Indeed God have changed him, from inside out ~

Psalm 126:5 Those who sow with tears will reap with songs of joy.

Thinking of Alpha Course
Thinking of touching people changing lives
Let's Sow ~

不想长大

可以像以前那么的简单吗
我想我是个不想长大的大孩子
以前的美好回忆
无法忘怀
藏在心里深处
不时拿来比较
这样不健康的举动
碍着我的成长
灭了尽情的玩乐的一切

不想长大
不时与现实矛盾的自己
“更新与蜕变”吧
把回忆留下
灵命的更新
才叫更新

决错了定

明天就要过年了
极度充分的理由
第一次感到
其实塞车也是理所当然的

今天的我
为着下星期而忙

我明白我应该随机应变
EQ不高的我总要很长时间
这是我的弱点

应该不是
应该是我快要疯了
好后悔我没有离开
我应该去个5天4夜
再一次我跳回了
同一个陷阱

决错了定
对不起不能重来了

美良河

这是个没有踩到JJ的一天
沉静的， 修饰了那大计划
google了美良河
对她的认识
增加了我对她的兴趣
我分辨不出
那是对她的怜悯
还是我给自己逃走的方向

活出神放在心中的蓝图

今年的我
计了个大划给自己
冲动有点
但却是第一次勇敢的正视自己
不想给自己后悔的余地

我希望我可以
太积极不懂自己会不会负荷不了


“大声唱哈利路亚.
欢喜快乐吧.勇敢往前踏.
大声唱哈利路亚.
活出神放在心中的蓝图和盼望.
张大眼睛看.神要开路啦.
打开心胸吧.神要扩张啦.
张大眼睛看.神要开路啦.
大声宣告吧.神要扩张啦.
紧紧抓住他.就会有希望.
所以不要放弃.不要放弃.不要放弃阿.”

我不想放弃，因为神不曾放弃

2 Corinthians 5:7

His father takes him into the forest, blindfolds him and leaves him alone.
He is required to sit on a stump the whole night and
not remove the blindfold until the rays of the morning sun shine through it.
He cannot cry out for help to anyone.
Once he survives the night, he is a MAN.
He cannot tell the other boys of this experience, because each lad must come into manhood on his own.
The boy is naturally terrified.
He can hear all kinds of noises.
Wild beasts must surely be all around him.
Maybe even some human might do him harm. 
The wind blew the grass and earth, and shook his stump, but he sat stoically, never removing the blindfold.
It would be the only way he could become a man!
Finally, after a horrific night the sun appeared and he removed his blindfold.
It was then that he discovered his father sitting on the stump next to him.
He had been at watch the entire night, protecting his son from harm.
We, too, are never alone.
Even when we don't know it, a Great God is watching over us, sitting on the stump beside us.
When trouble comes, all we have to do is reach out to Him.

Just because you can't see God, doesn't mean He is not there.
For we walk by faith, not by sight. 2Corinthians 5:7.


This reminded me about the dream of man - the footprints
How many time we needed to be reminded that God is good and He love us.
How to counting the blessing; the goodness of You that i won't be able to forget.
teach me, lead me, guide me to be walking on your way by faith.
"For we live by faith, not by sight" ...it's so clear yet....

讲话讲好好， 谢谢

讲话的效益




现代步伐比爸爸的年代快， 讲话的效益相对的也越来越多人重视。



“你吃饱了吗？”这是再普通不过的开场白，但是学问颇深。

如果你35岁以下，　问了这个经典的口头禅。

同年级的熟悉朋友可能会回答“做么？要请呀？”

但不熟悉的朋友可能会对你微笑但心里想着“关你屁事”

如果是比你年长的人， 可能会来不及反映，因为他们没想到你会问这问题。

讲这话的效益就不大， 甚至会降低你的整体形象。

简单的“嗨，你好”反而效益较高。



但如果你是40 以上， 你就可以用这个开场白。

因为你周围的朋友已经习惯这种方式。

你若不问他们，他们也应该会回问你。



如果面对长辈，这个开场白可能可以聊１个小时。



问对的问题，肯定可以帮助提高个人形象。





现代人用电话沟通甚多。

看不到脸部表情，问问题时要更为谨慎。

你也许看过朋友把手机拿的远远的并且表现出一幅不耐烦地表情。

重点摘要，是很重要的。



“噢，没有啦, 我只是想问你…” 也是非常避忌的话。

如果你看得到对方的表情，可能他已翻着白眼，问着自己“到底是有还是没有？”



如果你发现你的对话中，有很多的“其实”， 或者你需要一直的重复你的问题，

请你检讨，问题可能出在你表达的方式。

不善的表达方式，会让人失去对你的信心。



清楚的表达你的需求，接线员才能事半功倍的帮你解决你得问题。

试想想，不正确地说明把原本要转至会计部的电话转到其他部门， 不但干扰其部门，也让你的需求不得要解。



你问题的答案，究竟是不是你要的。

甲：你星期三几点放工？

乙：5点。

甲：那么你要去那里吃饭？

乙：回家吃。

甲：哦，那个谁讲想要去阿文家BBQ？

乙：哦，我答应要回家吃饭了，我不能参与。

甲：其实没有啦，只是想问你那个烤鸡那里买呀？

因为...所以

开车应该可以再慢一点  车祸还蛮可怕的
电影应该需要看多几场 场场大制作花RM10 + 2 小时

幸好这事还可以因为所以
那太多的事不能

太快了

2011 太快了
又一次我还没准备好
记得2010 也是如此

2011 我希望
时间可以停留的久一点
上帝我要学习度日